Diaryland - what a refuge.

Nobody here to judge me.

Nobody here to misunderstand or ask me to explain myself.

Just me, God, and (digital) paper.

Things are coming to a head with Mom and Sam and Christmas with Grandma and Grandpa, and I'm the one they're all gonna be looking at. :(

I don't like creating discord in my family.

But I also don't like manipulation, deception, and spiritual warfare.

My sister, I think I mentioned, is moving over here with her boyfriend to live in a trailer on Mom's property until next year when they move to ******** together for school.

My heart can't be at peace with this.

Mom is trying to get ALL of us to go home (to GM and GJ's) for Christmas for some kind of perfect-Christmas fantasy she has for GM and GJ's 60th wedding anniversary.

But with the big elephant in the room--Sam and Dante living together--it's not going to be the perfect Christmas she wants.

Or it could be on the surface, if I just put on a happy face.

But I am really. Sick. Of putting on faces.

(Unfinished.)

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