It's hard seeing happy families with babies on Facebook right now.

Not when I'm in the middle of my own war with myself and my husband about baby #2.

I got to talk to someone today about it. First time. It was Heidi. She was very supportive and understanding and possibly more frustrated with Stephen than I am, LOL. I'm the same way when she tells me stories about her mom. Who is being difficult again, my goodness.

I think Heidi is overjoyed that she gets to listen to my problems now, LOL, instead of me always listening to hers. :)

Last night I slept on the floor because I couldn't bear to lay by Stephen sleeping soundly and I couldn't bear to wake him up either.

I got about 2 hours of sleep.

Micah talked from midnight to 3:30. I'm planning on putting him to bed late tonight to see if we can avoid a repeat. I "slept" during that time period, in 20- or 30-minute increments.

I was awake at 3 and fell asleep on the floor at 6:30.

Stephen talked to me at 7:25 before leaving for work.

Micah woke up at 7:45 but went back to sleep. We slept until 9.

I tried to take a nap at 3 PM but it didn't work.

I'm doing okay today; tomorrow is when it will hit me like a ton of bricks.

Tomorrow Stephen is helping Andrew build a fence at 10:30 AM and later I'm joining them for our small group meeting. I plan on leaving during Micah's naptime so he can get a nap. So I think I'm going to survive on tea tomorrow.

I'm not totally ruling out the possibility of just coming late, though, if I desperately need a nap.

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