Is it something about this time of year????

Today as Stephen and I were driving about doing grocery shopping, I was suddenly hit with a very strong "We need to think about another kid soon" feeling. It felt like, "Time is escaping from us." Maybe it's the trees starting to change color in earnest now. But for some reason, it hit me pretty hard. I don't have any fears of becoming infertile--HA!--but I do have some fears about being too tired to really enjoy parenting. There's also this feeling of a "window" of wanting to have another kid--like between now and the time Micah is 3. If I wait until Micah is 3, I'm pretty sure I could easily be talked out of having another one and just getting Micah a dog instead. (#kiddingnotkidding)

So I talked about it with Stephen. He wants to wait until Grandma B is settled in her assisted living home or whatever she needs--which will happen sometime after Christmas. That makes sense. I'm not quite ready to try yet, but I do feel that sense of urgency.

So yeah. Eek! I don't exactly want to go through labor, delivery, and the newborn days all over again. (Although I loved being pregnant. Minus the nausea 1st trimester--and even that was somewhat manageable if I kept food in my stomach.) But I do think giving Micah a sibling is the right thing to do and I think it needs to happen soonish.

Not sure what else to say--super nervous and excited all at the same time, LOL, just like the first time around. Hope I'm still feeling this way in 4-6 monthsish.

Eek!

-Stephanie

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