What? What do you want me to do? Where do you want me? I'm happy where I am. But I'm unemployed. God, where do you want me? Please don't let my education go to waste. Please don't let my parents' money and my husband's expectations go unfulfilled. Please just put me somewhere, anywhere there's an income. I enjoy all the projects a lot. I just didn't see myself in this position--not getting paid. I was going to pay my parents back. I was going to make Stephen happy by helping pay for stuff--at least my own stuff!

God, what do you want me to do?? What in the world are you trying to teach me here?

It's unacceptable to be here for the next three to five years. I must pay my family back. I promised myself I would. I must be able to always pay for my own unnecessary stuff: make-up, clothes, CDs, books. I promised myself I wouldn't be a burden to anybody. So what is with this?!

Even the $10 every once in a while will help. I can live unburdeningly on $10 every once in a while.

I wasn't prepared for this. Dear God, what are you doing to me here?

What can I do? Pay me!!!

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