I know I implied I'd be delving more deeply into personal stuff in the entry before I changed the password, but I can't bring myself to do it just now until I have more authentic information. In short, I'm just stressed/worried about my mom seeing someone, but I don't have any new information, still not even a gender of this "friend" of hers, so I've decided just to keep a low, unassuming profile when I'm with her until she, of her own free will, tells me anything more. Which could be a while. Or never.

Last week I was a wreck. This week I was slightly more stable, but then I nearly cried in the middle of the 3rd or 4th song at Zumba because Mom was so completely normal.

Sometimes you learn, or think you learn, something so earth-shaking that you feel as if the whole world you knew has shifted and become something else. And then something happens; somebody you are familiar with and thought was different says something so very much within their old, familiar ways that it makes you cry from the sheer normalcy--making you think perhaps things aren't so different after all. And it's partly helpful, because you realize, to your amazement, that you can still operate from the same platform that you always did with that person; but it's partly surreal, because, despite their normalcy, you know that something is different.

Have you ever had a moment like that?

-Stephanie

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