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"Now What?" Revisited
6:10 p.m. || December 14, 2012
What a whirlwind week.
The beginning of the week was full of Christmas stress.
Two public shootings made national news.
Dealing with my sister's crazy comments on Facebook.
And yesterday I got a call from my work offering me my job back.
And after a long, hugely emotional, way too detailed discussion with Stephen, and a rough night of sleep, I finally called the shop back and declined my old job, in favor of pursuing design.
I haven't made this public knowledge yet, because they might call me again. And then I will have to go through the torment of indecision all over again. And I would just prefer not to tell people how difficult this is for me, because I could never explain it to everyone in a way that they could fully understand.
So. The short of it is, I declined because as long as I have a steady job at a flower place, I don't have the motivation I need to actually pursue design. But aside from that, which is true, after 2.5 years of experience there as a driver, I have come to believe that I will never be seen as more than a driver there.
Georgene, who used to work there, confirmed this for me when I texted her: she told me that shop is the only one she ever worked at that doesn't allow drivers to design as well.
So.
Here I am.
Face to face with the question again.
Now what?
-Stephanie
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