Straight from my Facebook status.

I tried aerial stretching/yoga today. How do I say this?

What was I THINKING?!

I don't think I ever realized how scared I am of instability--physical or otherwise. The fear in realizing that I do NOT have the core strength to keep myself suspended that way, and in the blazing image of losing my balance in that swing and falling and cracking my head open, was literally debilitating.

I ended up just getting out of my swing in the middle of class and then falling apart into tears. Awful. Of course the instructors were very sweet to me.... But it was still humiliating--to show myself completely inept that way, as well as to realize how deep fear really scores my soul. Amazing how new experiences make you realize things about yourself at a whole new level.

And if I go back to that class, I'll just stay grounded on the floor instead of trying to defy death up in a hammock. The instructor will sure understand. :)

-Stephanie

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