It changes a little more every time I tell it...

Written to my old high school art teacher, who I recently discovered goes to a Reformed Baptist church in my hometown:

My conversion story is another long story... I'm still trying to straighten out everything, honestly. I grew up in the Nazarene church, even went to a Nazarene college. But I had a lot of hard questions and nobody had answers for me at my church, and in college, much of the faculty was unfortunately liberalized and held beliefs closer to universalism than Christianity. I came into that environment extremely unprepared and left not knowing if anything I had ever heard about the Bible or Christianity was real or true. I was angry and hurt and so lost.

In the middle of that, I met Stephen. Stephen, who had grown up Presbyterian, in a solid Christian family, had a lot of the answers I was looking for--although I was too cynical/hurt/whatever to believe any of it yet. Plus, he was a Calvinist, and way, WAY too sure of himself.  But there was some attraction there nonetheless as we swing danced together, then we went on one date at the end of the summer, and he prayed for me before I went back to my last year of college, and suddenly there were fireworks and I had stars in my eyes. It was so unexpected, and apparently mutual. It took us all of four months from that point to get engaged. 

Throughout our engagement, through lots of premarital counseling, the sermons of the church we started attending together, many prayers, and talking to his parents about things, God started healing me and turning my heart back around to Him. And I started accepting more of those points of Calvinism I had kicked so hard against before. :) Twenty-twelve was about when I came to peace with my new Calvinist views. I know that because my Facebook posts started reflecting them. 

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