One paper and one project down, three papers (?) and one group project to go. Phew!

I still have to print out my Teaching project, though; the Wiley computer lab isn't open on Sundays and they're the only ones with a color printer. Although I suppose I could e-mail Rebekah my project and have her print it out... But that might screw stuff up, never mind. I'll just print it out tomorrow after English Comp.

Oh, English Comp. UGH! This week we work on our last essay of the year. He hasn't given us a topic except "Express An Opinion." I don't know what to express an opinion about.

It is my opinion that NNU should not water the lawns beyond saturation.
It is my opinion that people should not date in junior high or high school.
It is my opinion that chess is a fascinating game.

LOL. That last one came from last night, after a concert. Mindy, Gwen and I all went for ice cream afterward, and we sat a table that had a checkers/chess board and backgammon board printed right on it and started playing chess. I've never seen a game of chess played and never played it myself, although I have heard all the chess metaphors and analogies and stuff. Mindy explained the moves of the pieces to me, and when she and Gwen began to play, I understood and was fascinated. It is a fascinating game! And all the phrases I've ever heard related to chess moves and pieces and stuff I suddenly understood and it was wonderful. I decided I should try to play chess sometime.

I don't think any of that is what I came in here to write... Oh yeah.

Today was beautiful. I wore my gold/orange rayon skirt. It was so much fun! I pranced through the grass barefoot, in the golden sunlight, pretending to be a wood fairy or something. Standing under the blossoming dogwood was glorious. Nothing but a pink canopy above you! And the branches are so graceful... I drew a branch, because I have never really noticed how graceful dogwood branches are. And crowned with pink and green against the blue sky... It was just too good to not draw! I might put it in my art blog once I finish coloring it.

Now, for where I was going with all that. I had a really lonely day today. At dinner I sat all by myself because the two tables my friends sat at were completely crammed. The pretending to be a fairy was kind of a way for pushing away the loneliness out of my head. That's what I'm worried about. Is that healthy--mentally? Reverting to childish daydreams to block out the trials of life? Is that dangerous? Might I go crazy?

I know I need to find some way to interact with new people and learn social skills and stuff. They won't always be the ones to reach out to me (that's what I depend on, really, to make friends--people who talk to me). I don't want to end up like Dostoevsky's underground man. :(

Anyway. I'm sure it's just an overreacting tired mind. Temporary insanity until these last two weeks of school are over. :)

-Stephanie

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