Scared OUT OF MY MIND.

Have you ever been so scared that your heart is just pounding in your ears? Okay. Most people have.

Have you been so scared that you can't even feel your heartbeat? I think it stopped once I opened that mailbox and hasn't started again yet.

I got Josh's reply to my invitation today. He guessed it was me. :) I wonder if it was stupidly easy? That's one source of my fright.

Um, he doesn't want to go to TWIRP. Which STINKS. But he wouldn't mind hanging out again. He likes talking to me.

I really wanted to go to TWIRP and now I don't know if it's too late to ask Kevin. It's too late to ask Ryan; Amanda beat me to the punch, but good for her. I'm glad he gets to go. :)

There's still David. But he never talks and I never talk unless someone else talks first, so I don't think that would be very successful.

I really want to go. Kevin's my last hope. If he's already been asked...

And tickets go on sale TONIGHT. So it's not like I can come up with something super creative in 10 hours. But I know Kevin'd think it was disappointing if I just asked him.

Heavens. I didn't expect the answer got. I expected a "Yes, I would like to go with you," I think. At the very least an "I've already been asked." But an "I really don't want to go to TWIRP"? AGH! Obviously I'm not going to make him go, but oh my goodness, what do I do?

If I dwell on this much longer I'll just freak myself out worse, so I'm going to stop dwelling on it and think about other things.

Today the first frost appeared on the ground. Fall is upon us, winter at its heels.

On the schedule for today: Avoid Josh and get a hold of Kevin.

-Stephanie

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