I realized something Friday night that I think is helping me get over Kevin, finally. All this time I've been thinking and wishing things were back to "normal", meaning I wish he would talk to me and be friendly again like he was to me last semester and over the summer. But Friday I realized, that wasn't normal. That was when he liked me. So normal is actually before he liked me... So this is normal. Kevin never talked to me until he started liking me. I guess I'm just going to have to accept that. I think I can. I think it's working already, actually. Today when he walked right on by me at church without so much as a "hello," I remembered that he would have acted just the same way before he started liking me, so it's normal. It's still waaaaay disappointing, because he is really a fun guy to talk to. The hardest thing now to get over, though, will be all the stupid things I did, all the drama I created. There is nothing more I hate than making mistakes and being wrong. Like about him wanting a relationship... I was dead wrong about that AND I should've known better. This is Kevin, for crying out loud. I don't know what put it into my head that maybe, just maybe, I was different and he really, really liked me, and that I wasn't just another girl that he'd just check off his list. Ugh. That's perhaps what I regret the most, because it kind of led to everything else.

Oh, Diary.

But life goes on. I still have at least four lesson plans to write on Hispanic culture before Thursday.

Saw Oklahoma yesterday--the musical. With my Sunday School class. It was fun. :) We went out to dinner beforehand and it was gooooooooood food! I love the Italians...

Later!

-Stephanie

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