I'm writing it a new entry because then I don't have to deal with putting all the HTML shortcuts in--paragraph breaks and whatnot.

I still haven't figured out what Isaac meant by the whole random tango/dancing analogy. The whole "healthy tension" thing made a lot of sense until that part of the conversation. I imagine they're tied in somehow, but I think he's even more analytical or whatever than I am, because I haven't figured out the ties yet.

Six hours. My gosh, I can't even believe it now! That is, hands down, THE LONGEST I have ever, ever, ever talked to anybody in one sitting. My longest conversations with close friends in real life average about one hour. My longest conversation with Isaac (before yesterday) was three hours, and that was definitely in, like, March 2005 or something.

The first four hours (...that's crazy) was on IM, and then AIM totally glitched out, and I was vastly confused and so was Isaac. On his side, he was seeing me signing on, signing off, signing on, signing off...Really randomly. On my side, it said that he was typing... and typing... and typing... For TEN STRAIGHT MINUTES. Nobody types that long, not even Isaac when you get him onto a theological topic. :D And it let me IM him (he didn't get any of those IMs), but it just kept saying Isaac was typing. So I was weirded out and since we were in the middle of a theological discussion, I didn't want to end it on just that note, so I called him. Yeah. :) Last time I called him was in November. Early November, no less. So it's been a while. Anyway... I called him after our computers or AIM glitched out. The first time I just got his voicemail. I tried again and he answered--it was funny, though, because his "This is Isaac" to answer the phone sounded EXACTLY like his "This is Isaac" on his voicemail. It took me a second to react with, "Isaac? This is Stephanie." :D I asked him what on earth had just happened with AIM to begin with, and we got that straightened out, and then the conversation totally turned around from what we'd been talking about, as it always does. My theory on that: the strangeness of the talking for real throws us off and we get onto other topics, like what the weather is like in California as opposed to the weather in here and silly stuff like that. :) It's just us trying to grasp that yes, this is the girl/guy I have been talking to on AIM, who lives in *******/California and goes to NNU/DUC; s/he is really real and this is her/him. It's so different.

Anyway, that was totally fun. But I was on a phone card that only had 40 minutes on it, so our time ran out. Then we just switched back to AIM, which I think was even a stranger transition than going from AIM to phone. It was like going from water to land. Humans can dwell on both water and land, but land is what is natural to us. Going to the sea is stepping out of our element; returning to the land is returning to the familiar.

Hey... That's pretty good. :)

Anyway. We got off the phone and picked our conversation back up on AIM, without a hitch. Water to land, you see. :) And it was not really serious at all, lots of fun, and the tail end of it is what I posted earlier this morning. So anyway, that's how that went. Six hours! Unbelievable.

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(Switching subjects.)

THAT was an interesting conversation! Good grief!! Kevin and his drama! Me and my drama! What in heaven's name is up with us?

So yesterday--before I go into the convo with Kevin--I worked in the library at the circ desk. I don't usually work circ, and so the girl I was working with, Erica, was trying to get to know me. After small talk she asked me pointblank, "So, are you dating anyone?" I said no. I talked about going on lots of casual dates last semester, stabbing around the whole drama between me and Kevin rather than telling her about it right off the bat. Reasonable, no? It turned out she knows both Kevin and Ryan from swing dancing. And she has exactly the same opinion of Kevin everyone else does. When I found that out, I immediately felt open enough with her to give her my sage advice. ::shakes head:: Sometimes I ought to just keep my mouth shut. So what I told her was, "If Kevin ever starts to like you, turn tail and run the other way." She laughed and told me that she knew, oh, she knew about all that. Then she inquired further, of course, so I outlined what happened between me and him to explain my advice.

Later she went to the Post Office and got the mail for the library. When she came back, I looked out the front doors of the library, and who else. WHO ELSE was out there. Yes, the one and only Kevin ******* (oops! almost gave away too much there). I knew in the instant I saw them talking outside that she'd told him too much. Sure enough... When Erica came in, she told me that she had name-dropped me to Kevin. AAH!!! WHAT is with this campus?? And WHY don't I ever learn?! You really think I'd learn!

::sigh:: So anyway. Today Kevin IMed me. We've been getting along pretty well. I've avoided telling him exactly what I thought of him after he ended things with me. I wonder what he would do if he actually knew what I felt over break? But I'm getting ahead of myself... He IMed me, and I knew from the start that I was going to try to find a way to name-drop Erica and see how he reacted. (Yeah. I never learn.) Pretty much exactly as I expected. Heavens.

Kevin says:
went to see Casino Royale with some people last night
Stephanie says:
oh yeah... I think somebody was talking about that
Stephanie says:
must've been Erica
Kevin says:
yeah, you and Erica
Kevin says:
not sure what to think about that
Stephanie says:
lol
Stephanie says:
she told me she name-dropped me to you yesterday
Kevin says:
yeah she did not just do that
Kevin says:
she came right out and hinted at whatever she was hinting at and then insisted that I knew what she was talking about when she didn't
Kevin says:
know what she was talking about
Stephanie says:
yeah. good grief. :-[ what did she tell you?
Stephanie says:
oh wait...hang on, let me reread what you said
Stephanie says:
sorry :-[
Kevin says:
it is supposed to be "when she didn't know what she was talking about"
Kevin says:
sorry for the break
Stephanie says:
okay, got it, lol
Kevin says:
what did you tell her that is my question
Stephanie says:
I might've maybe told her that if you started to like her she should run the other way...but I was teasing. mostly. :-[
Stephanie says:
please don't hate me forever :-S
Kevin says:
hahaha
Kevin says:
she has had fair warning in that area
Stephanie says:
well, so did I :-P
Kevin says:
yeah, well
Kevin says:
the life of a heartbreaker, what can I say
Stephanie says:
yeah, you have to quit with all the charmingness and mad dancing skills
Kevin says:
yeah I am my own worst enemy
Stephanie says:
I told Erica you were a good dance partner and she laughed. she said that when you first started salsa dancing you kept trying to do swing dance steps :-)
Stephanie says:
I thought that was hilarious :-P
Stephanie says:
you learned, I guess, lol
Stephanie says:
anyways. I should stop bugging you. you're probably doing something super important at the ol' library :-)
Kevin says:
yeah Ryan and I are looking at Logos stuff
Stephanie says:
'k. have fun with that, then. I'm going to take a nap and then hit the books.
Stephanie says:
maybe go to Duck Park or something...it's sooooo nice today
Stephanie says:
it was nice talking to you again :-) see ya around
Kevin says:
bye Steph
Stephanie says:
bye

I was soooooooooo glad when he laughed at my confession: "I might've maybe told her if you start to like her she should run the other way." And in the very next second I SO wanted to clobber him when he said "Life of a heartbreaker." I also wanted to clobber him--or maybe myself--when he mentioned that Ryan was RIGHT THERE. Ryan is the one who said once that "Kevin is too much of a romantic for his own good. He seems to think he's broken more hearts than he actually has." RARGH. So now I'm sure Kevin is telling Ryan all about the drama between us, AND what I just said in that conversation to boot.

But I'm kind of glad. I didn't want to tell Ryan about all that junk myself. He asked about it the other day, through MySpace, due to some things we'd been talking about. I mentioned just a bit about it to him yesterday when he came into the library and tried to chat with me, but I was pretty flustered and couldn't find the words to elaborate more, because I was doing something I was totally not used to doing yet still trying to act like I knew what I was doing while doing it, and holding a conversation in that frame of mind is really just not possible. :P Poor Ryan. I apologized to him later, just for not being able to talk straight.

Anyway. So good grief. KEVIN AND HIS DRAMA! And me and my drama! When on earth are we going to grow up??

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Talking to Isaac and trying to figure that whole thing out is so dramaless compared to Kevin. :D I like that. And I like that he's okay with leaving loose ends hanging sometimes. It's like he knows exactly when to pick them up and when to let them hang. Anyway, I'm rambling.

Life's good. :)

...Kevinless life, at any rate.

-Stephanie

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