Here I sit in the library with nothing to do, as usual. And, good grief! I still have 40 minutes left! Wow.

I wonder if all the other library aides have this much free time? Or is it just last hour, because everything�s been done earlier? :p If that�s the case, then I wish I�d offered to be an aide for an earlier hour. But that would�ve messed up my schedule� Of course, it might�ve allowed for AP English instead of Tech. Writing and Brit. Lit. I am going to forever kick myself for not signing up for that class! What is wrong with me? And this being my last year to do so! Gosh� Why couldn�t they have offered that class when I was registering for everything else at the end of last year?

I wish it was a semester-long class� Then I would drop Tech. Writing in an instant and sign up for it. Life is so tragical!

I wonder if I could possibly get into the class anyway at semester? But then, no, that would never work, because I want to take British Literature.

I wish I could switch into AP English RIGHT NOW. Stupid schedule changing rules! But then, if they let you change your schedule whenever you wanted... That'd be kind of stupid. Some kids would be changing once a week, every week. Very dumb idea.

So I guess the blame returns to the morons who decided to offer AP English at high school registration in August instead of regular registration in April! (Or whatever month it's in...) It makes me SO MAD!

Maybe they'd let me switch... I mean, I am a good student, and I WANT to be in an advanced English class! Shouldn't that tell them something?

:::final despairing despair::: Of course it would never work. Oh, I wish I weren't... whatever it is I am that made me decide against signing up for AP English. I didn't want to have to try to rearrange my schedule all over again; that was hard enough the first time.

Perhaps God has some sort of intelligible plan in this. If He does, I wish I knew what it was. It all seems unfair to me. :(

Or maybe it's just all my own stupid fault.

"When will I ever learn?"

-Stephanie