Nine years ago, two high school boys entered their school and shot and killed 13 people. I was only 12 years old and felt quite removed from the situation--I didn't care, frankly. Now I am reading about a college-age guy who came to his college and shot many of his college classmates and it's a LOT closer to home, even though in physical distance it's further.

I'm not even sure what to say. It just really affected me, reading about these students who are my age--fresh out of high school--following their interests and discovering who they are through college experience. Kids that were in the same place in life that I'm at. And now they're gone. Their lives ended, just like that.

An 8-year-old boy--the son of one of my supervisors--had a "close encounter" on Monday. His dad had left him in the car--with the windows rolled down, mind you, enough that there was no danger--and Danner (the boy) panicked. He thought he was going to die. His dad brought him into the library and then came into the back room (without Danner) and talked to me and my immediate supervisor about the incident. They mentioned how he was realizing early that life ends. I remember thinking to myself, Really? At 8? I'm 21 and I haven't realized yet that life ends.

Reading about the students killed at Virginia Tech has sent it a little more home now. Life ends. Tragic things happen. I'm not as indestructible as I think I am.

I'm still taking it in, so there'll be no resolution to this... But just something for me to think about.

-Stephanie

I pull over the side of the road and I
Watch the cars pass me by
The headlights and the black limousines tell me
Someone is saying goodbye
I bow my head and I whisper a prayer, 'Father,
Comfort their broken hearts'
And as I drive away there's a thought that I
I cannot escape, no I, I cannot escape this thought
I can't get away

Oh, if this should be my last day on this earth
How then shall I live?
Oh, if this should be the last day that I have
Before I breathe the air of Heaven
Let me live it with abandon to
The only thing that remains
After my last day
Here on earth
If this should be my last day here on earth
If this should be my last day here on earth
If this should be my last, my last day here on earth

And if tomorrow comes to find me
Looking in the face of Jesus
Will I hear Him say the words, "Well done"?

Oh, if this should be my last day on this earth
How then shall I live
Oh, if this should be the last day that I have
Before I breathe the air of Heaven
Let me live it with abandon to
The only thing that remains
After my last day here on earth
If this should be my last day here on earth
If this should be my last day here on earth
If this should be my last, last day here on earth

If this should be my last day here on earth
If this should be my last, my last day here on earth
'Cause this could be my last, this could be my last
This could be my last day

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