I took one of those in-depth personality quizzes just for fun last night. It was an agree-or-disagree-with-this-statement type test.

Question #_
Others find me attractive.
Very Inaccurate - 2 - 3 - 4 - Very Accurate

"Hey, honey--others find me attractive?" I ask Stephen.
"Well, I sure do!" Stephen says.
I laugh and say, "Well, duh, but who else? It says o-THERS."
"I'm sure your mom thinks you're attractive!" he says.
I stop short.
I imagine various ways my mom might answer that question.
A hesitant, uncertain, "Well, of course I think you're attractive!" With an edge of annoyance that is supposed to convey the sheer ridiculousness of an answer in any other direction. In my early days, I would have taken this annoyance as an attempt to hide what I thought was her true answer: "No, you are not attractive." But now, older, I realize that that annoyance is just a shield to hide her even deeper insecurity about her own attractiveness. It's amazing what a broken relationship does to a woman.

In other news, I started a journey. I started adding my dad's side of the family as my Facebook friends. Yeah, interesting, I know--especially considering that my grandpa and aunt are on there, too! I'm not sure what they'll say. I'd be more nervous, though, if my mom were on Facebook. I'm soooooo glad she's not.

I got a really nice comment from a woman who I guess is my great aunt. She's my dad's dad's sister-in-law. She said, "What a lovely young lady you are." Wow. That's pretty phenomenal coming from a relative of my dad's who may not have even known I existed before. She's a Nazarene--a LOT of my dad's side of the family is Nazarene (which is crazy). It seems like Nazarenes have this way of immediately accepting people as family. It's really quite amazing, and quite a blessing.

I don't know where this'll lead. I sure hope it's somewhere good!

At least I know that God makes ALL things will work together for good. I just hope I don't have to deal with too much bad before the good comes.

-Stephanie

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