Yeah, I am writing again. I decided to do a new entry since the other one got so long.

Aye yi yi..... I am talking to Beth right now. And my fingers are shaking. Because she just told me that at church they have spread things about her and Justin that aren't so great. "I have heard people talking about me and how I shouldn't have done that and how mean it is of me," were her exact words. But she didn't tell me what exactly was being said. So she just left it to my imagination.

And my imagination is going wild and my mind isn't accepting very well what I assume she means.

A while ago I had a sleep over. I invited some of my closest friends (not her; I was having great difficulties with her then). For a long time we just had tons of fun. I brought my diaries from the past two years so we could look over them-- I love sharing them, some of the entries are sooooo funny! :D

But somehow good times turned bad and we got to talking about Beth and Justin. To make a really long story short, I told them all about the struggles I had been facing with those two and, well, the notes she had written me that broke my heart..... And I ended up crying my heart out. And one of the girls there was a closer friend of Beth's, and she said, "Wow. If I hadn't known her before tonight, I'd be, like, hating her right now."

So... Um... My thoughts are, maybe some of those girls--who I would hardly think to be blabbermouths, though!--have mentioned some things around Beth's closest friend, who apparently mentioned those things to her. :( NOT cool!

Yeah. That would be why my fingers are shaking.

I asked her after those thoughts occurred to me, "Hoo boy. Just thought of some possibilities about what might've been said. You know how awful it is when you always imagine the worst?? But then what if what you imagine is true?" I think I totally confused her for a minute. :P Then she said, "I maybe get it, let me try again...I get it."

Did she really, though? Probably not...

Well, now I need to get offline (again). I stay on WAY too long! :P

-Stephanie