It's my 5th anniversary. We had a great day. The weather was GORGEOUS! It was sunny and crisp and cool. So amazingly pretty. We went to the local Japanese garden and got some exercise and got to enjoy God's nature. And then we went to dinner at the most delicious restaurant we know of. :) We both ate way too much... But it was so worth it. :D

And that was about it. We ran a few errands before and after, but that was the sum of our day. It was just exactly the kind of day we love.

Afterward, I found myself reflecting upon our marriage. The last 5 years have passed so beautifully slowly. For some couples, 5 years before kids is not the right path for their marriage, but for us it was.

Now, off birth control and trusting God to grant us children in His timing, I know the next 25 will not pass the way the first 5 have. It will be more like I blinked, and then Stephen and I will be gray and starting to wrinkle.

It made me start to cry, knowing I won't have this much perfectly untouched time with just Stephen for another 25 years. But I also know that there will be many other more beautiful moments along the way when we enter the realm of parenthood.

And Stephen reminded me that the beauty of this life is fading and is only a dim example of how beautiful the next will be--as Paul writes, "For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known." (1 Corinthians 13:12)

I hope (and I imagine it'll be so) when we get to heaven, that Jesus will erase all concept of loss from our minds. And I think, perhaps, all the "beautiful" I feel here will transform into its true form over there and I'll see all along that the beautiful moments were only pointing me forward in hope.

-Stephanie

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