Well, Diary. It's happening. I am finally having to seriously overhaul my diet. Sigh.

I think I will be happier. But overhauling a diet is SO hard.

Steve and I started the 21-Day Fix last Saturday and I've been really struggling with it. They portion out how much food from each group you should get according to the weight you are and how many calories you should be eating to lose weight, and give you workouts to do every day. The workouts are great - but my blood sugar! Oh man! I cannot stay on top of it. I felt like crap all day long today.

I've struggled with low blood sugar episodes for a long time. My first memory of it is in elementary school, walking to the school cafeteria for lunch. I was focusing solely on putting one foot in front of the other to keep me moving because I was so weak and shaking so bad. I just wanted to curl up in a ball on the cold sidewalk.

The worst memory I have of a low blood sugar episode is early in our marriage when I was depressed and had eaten nothing but a muffin at lunch. Stephen came home at dinnertime and found me lying in bed, too weak to move. We got me some help for the depression after that. :/

Then it started happening on Sundays at church when Stephen and I would get Starbucks drinks before heading to church. I would always get a chai latte. I ate a bowl of cereal beforehand, but my blood sugar still would plummet during church and I'd be shaky and "buzzy-headed" in church, making it hard to focus. I knew it was a sugar/protein imbalance, so I tried adding soy milk into my drink, but it didn't help. Then I added in a pastry from Starbucks in addition to the cereal. And that did help. Yay! Except...pastries. They are very fattening.

Now I'm trying to lose the 15 lbs I gained when I weaned Micah, but I've had a heck of a time trying to keep my blood sugar from crashing, even when I have Greek yogurt for breakfast.

So I gotta figure something out. I think, Diary, I'm going to have to give up and actually eat....EGGS AND BACON for breakfast.

Most people would consider this a luxury.

I don't. I love--LOVE--my sweet breakfasts. And I don't like the smell of eggs and bacon cooking when I have an empty stomach. It makes me nauseous.

But I don't see any other option at this point. I think I finally need to just bit the bullet and EAT THE STUPID EGGS.

Sigh.

Maybe--MAYBE maybe maybe maybe--after eating eggs and bacon for breakfast for a while...I can add in some cereal and milk. But just a little bit.

'Cause man, that sugar. Even if it seems like a tiny amount to me. It's just not working for me. I can't live like this anymore.

NO MORE LOW BLOOD SUGAR!

#eatmoreprotein
#noimeanREALLY!!
#nomoresugarforbreakfast
#asinNONE!

Sigh.

-Stephanie

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