I wrote this at school yesterday; I thought it was kind of funny/interesting, so here:

"I haven't written that sweet, innocent stuff in my diary for a long time. After this year nothing is sweet & innocent anymore. Events have aroused suspicion, jealous, anger... I'm not a little girl anmore.

It's funny how people can't wait to grow up, but when they finally do, they want to be young again. Mystery of the ages, that is...

I always told myself & others, 'I never want to grow up!' I believed it, too, wholeheartedly. But now I look back and I find that in some ways I did indeed want to grow up. I still do! Even moreso recently.

What initiates that feeling, I wonder? It happens to everyone in their teen years, however soon and severely it pounces. Even Adrien was like that. Probably Justin and their older brother, were, too, at one point. Perhaps Justin is being so even now. I wonder.... but no, I won't go there.

Hmm. On a different thread.... How is it that Christians become so conceited? They always do. It's like we say, 'Jesus is the only way to heaven; we know it, you don't, therefore you have no hope of ever being saved.' We brag. We boast. We are proud. We turn people off"--and then we justify ourselves by saying, "Well, Jesus had some people who sure didn't like him." What is it with pride? It's such a poison! How do you overcome it? How do you humble thyself in the sight of the Lord? There are so many things I have yet to understand about my walk with Christ....

-Stephanie