No news on the boy yet. I wonder if the school will ever talk openly to us about what's happened?

Today was really weird. Yesterday was the seniors' last day... The halls seemed so empty! And the courtyard, and my classes--it was just really strange. No seniors, anywhere.

One of my classes was only juniors and seniors, and it was about 10-12 people big today! And jazz choir, 12 people were gone, out of 27 normally. WOW. But I didn't really get to observe how small it was because today we met in the band room real briefly and then spread out to play Frisbee, cards, just to talk, whatever. I played Frisbee again.... It was SO awesome. :D Not as awesome as Tuesday... But, oh my goodness, there were a few times where I was just like, Heaven! Heaven! Heaven!! And today there wasn't a big tree in the way. I threw to Logan a lot more times, but not that many, because half the time I was right next to him. Heh heh... I halfway arranged that... ;D

We also had class elections today, for next year's class presidents, etc. Another reminder that we're gonna be seniors next year... That's WAY too weird!

My shoulders are getting burnt. Yay! I'm not even out of school yet. But that's half of it anyway, darn it. I go to school, and after school these days I'm full of energy, so I go out and weed the garden and jump on the trampoline a little. Once school gets out I won't have anything to be all energetic about.

Gosh..... How is a whole summer without seeing Logan every day going to be? I wonder if I'll ever see him? I hope so. Right now in jazz choir I take every chance I get to be around/near him in a casual environment. It's not 'cause I'm obsessed with being around him, like in junior high with Justin. I just want to get to know him better, to be friends with him. Get as close as possible without letting on I like him. I don't really want him to know I like him yet. But it's really hard! I act so stupid.... All uneasy and, therefore, REALLY girly. It's so humiliating. You know, at home I think, I could act totally normal around him. Sure! It's not that hard. Tomorrow I'll be fine around him. But then the minute I see him, all my confidence just vanishes! Arrgh! It's so frustrating... WHY can't I act normal around him like I do around Bryce?? He's just another guy, right??

Right.

It was really hot today. 90�. Summer has arrived. :)

-Stephanie