Well, please pray for Steve and I, if you think of it. I'm getting burnt out on everything, including talking to him, and although he seems to be taking it fine, I worry that he's a little hurt. I asked him not to call me tomorrow or Sunday. I'll be way happier to talk to him if I'm not talking to him for 2+ hours every single day...

It nonetheless was quite a relief when he said, "I want you to know, that this is okay." I was like, "OH good!" I hate risking hurting someone's feelings...

He says it's not that it hurts his feelings, but it makes him slightly nervous when I don't want to talk to him for a couple days. He worries that I'm pushing him away. I guess he had an ex-girlfriend who did that to him once. Anyway, he doesn't quite get my introverted personality needs space and me-only time.

I feel like saying to him, "PLEASE don't smother me, or I WILL push you away!"

I worry a little that this tend towards smothering-ness is going to become a control problem. That really scares me. I don't do control. On the one hand, I hate being controlled. On the other hand, my nonconfrontational personality makes me highly susceptible to controlling personalities.

So I worry. And my mom doesn't help matters; her number one warning to me about Steve is ALWAYS, "I hope he's not controlling." I guess she's aware I'm susceptible to controlling personalities too. I know my grandpa is; he worries about that all the time.

But I know if I dwell on this too much that it will make matters worse. So I'm not going to think about it... But I'm going to ask you guys for prayer nonetheless--and say my own.

Thank you, all.

-Stephanie

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