My last entry was not very happy, and sadly, this entry is not exactly chipper either. But it's at least not a hate-life entry.

There's a kind of happiness that's a somber happiness. When you are glad about something, but you realize the seriousness of it. You aren't exactly joyful, but at least at peace.

Stephen and I had a fight this weekend--our first "real" fight. I was acting like a child because I didn't get my way, and he was getting understandably frustrated with me. My best friend Liz, who got married last May, invited Stephen and me to spend the weekend with her at her house. I'm pretty sure that wouldn't have been a problem, but Stephen was concerned about how it would look to people. We wouldn't have even been spending nights on the same floor of the house, but Stephen was being irritatingly (to me) protective of my reputation. He especially didn't want to risk expulsion from NNU when I'm so close to graduating.

So it turned into a fight. And I acted a lot like a 4-year-old. We got the fight resolved in the afternoon--I apologized for acting like a preschooler--but the emotional exhaustion led to too much thinking and overthinking on my part which snowballed into something in a way worse than a fight, which I will not talk about. And that didn't get resolved until today.

We are okay now. But it took us a good night's rest. We were both exhausted, absolutely spent, when we said good night, and were in NO condition to resolve the drama I created. But this morning when Steve came to my door, I didn't even say good morning--I just fell into his arms and hugged him as tight as I could. He understood, I accepted his forgiveness, and the rest of the day was beautiful. It felt nice to be back to feeling completely, ridiculously in love like we usually do. :)

Anyway... Just a little update on my life, I guess. I have SO much homework to get done. This weekend was not homework-conducive at all. :P So I am going to get as much done as I can, and then go to BED. Early. Good night, all.

-Stephanie

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