I am so tired of having bad dreams! Man! I wish Mr. Sandman would give me a break already...

This time it had a valuable message in it, but it still stressed me out and I am still feeling stressed, and it won't go away until I see Stephen. Or our counselor. Or both. Thank goodness it's Wednesday (our counseling day). Oy. :(

I'm going to write about it in here because it was valuable to me. And also to destress. This is copied and pasted from my diary.

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I just had a REALLY bad dream.

He was falling out of love with me because I was gone for a long weekend (like this weekend) and he was spending too much time with this girl, Tula.

That was a REALLY bad dream. Really, really, really, really bad....

I can't believe how way-too-real that was. I'm seriously scared right now that he's not in love with me anymore.

It's sort of a spin off of Sam's situation right now. Sam is refalling in love with AJ. AJ has a son. Tula, in my dream, had a daughter, and part of the reason Steve was falling in love with her was because of her daughter and getting to take care of her.

It's amazing what jealousy can do to a relationship. It demolishes trust. I don't think there's any faster way.

I'm glad Stephen spent all his time sorting in his apartment this weekend, and not seeing anybody.

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I'm okay now, I guess, but I will feel MUCH better when I see him tonight and hug him again.

The message I got from the dream was that jealousy can demolish trust in a relationship, and we both need to be careful about that. I talked to Stephen about it (he called me on a short break, since I texted him that I had had a bad dream) and he says that as long as we communicate with each other if either of us are feeling pricks of jealousy, we ought to be okay. I think he's right. Communication is everything in a serious relationship...

In other, happier news: LESS THAN TWO MONTHS!!!!!

By a day. ;D

-Stephanie

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