Isn't it funny how fears can rest on top of peace?

That's what I was thinking as I drove away from counseling today, knowing I wouldn't be back for 3 weeks.

How are you? I'm free.

For months counseling has been only a crutch to me and has prevented me from growing any on my own. Today after discussing it with Lori, I decided it's time to break free of my crutch and learn to stand on my own two feet.

I haven't felt this much peace in ages.

And yet there are definitely fears clamoring on the surface. It's kind of like they're trying to get in, and make my core fear again instead of peace.

But I have never felt so free.

I'm a separate person than Steve. Not sure where I lost track of that, but I remembered it today. I don't have to make his worries my worries, if I know I'm doing what's best for me. Geez, why didn't I realize that three weeks ago?

-Stephanie

P.S. Haha, this is entry 828--like my username.

828 refers to Romans 8:28, "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."

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